You always admire what you really don't understand.
Please love me or I'll be gone.
Jocelyn Tan
23 March 1994
i always fall for anything and everything
that i know its impossible for me to have them.
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Friday, May 09, 2008, 5/09/2008 10:50:00 PM
Finally, today is friday! but it makes no difference cos everyday i each home, its not even 12 noon :D
i reach home, cook and eat lunch and then sleep.
it's a cycle man!
even if i am having sci paper the next day, i will sleep till evening then wake up and study. LOL
it's lik 5h of nap. -.-
i also bth my laziness lol,
i woke up but jus lazy to crawl out of bed.
tuesday- lit (was okay, jus afraid i wouldn't get good grades)
wednesday- sci(physics kills, bio was still alright, pray hard physics dun pull me down)
thursady-maths paper 1( it's quite easy, honestly, but i didn't study and practice, so i dunno how to do, left 3 q blank, i gave up in maths D: )
friday- eng paper 2( all about sports, boring la, but i hope i dun fail eng, i dun wan to stay one more extra year in this shitty sch)
next mon will be DNT,
tues will be maths paper 2,
ans wed, chinese list. compre.
and EXAMS will be OVER!
thursday marking day- will be shopping wif chuakexin at fareast.
friday- back in sch again, might get back papers.
wan pon sch also cannot.
but i am afraid my results would be disappointing. :(
tmr gonna wake up at 6.3o, -.-
going to mama side de ahma house for mother day's celebration.
finally, i can go out,
i miss the air outside.
i miss seeing my money flying away.
i miss walking the whole bugis street for dunno how many times.
i miss carrying shopping bags.
i miss dressing up nicely, and go crazy on streets.
i miss my make-ups.
i miss laughing with my girlfriends.
i miss my cousins.
i miss my classmates.(i dun see them for long everyday)
i miss my BBS.
i miss his jokes.
i miss him SUAN-ing me.
i miss crapping with my girlfriends.
i miss gossiping with my girlfriends.
i miss my laogong.(she's so busy T.T)
i miss movies times.
i miss how i went crazy over idols.
i miss how busy am i dealing with crazy ppl.
i miss cam-whoring.
i miss pe lessons.
i miss those vulgarities.
i miss those stupids acts of classmates.
i miss those horny classmates of mine.
i miss their silly jokes.
i miss how they bullied me.
i miss lessons.
i miss rushing last min hw.
i miss daddy.
i miss grandparents.
i miss the feeling of pain.
i miss running around in sch.
i miss smacking ppl.
i miss sleeping in class.
i miss how stupid i smiled when i saw your msg.
i miss how idiot i look lik when i saw you.
i miss talking.
i miss listening to your craps.
i miss those rantings.
i miss long mrt journey.
i miss my atm card.
i miss those POSB machines.
i miss chewing on my favourtie food.
i miss how petty i am.
i miss my house phone.
i miss scoldings.
i miss looking at handsome guys.
i miss every single one of my friends.
i miss those small little chats.
i miss my craziness.
i miss my smile.
i miss the bitchy me.
i miss that siao siao me.
i miss my own laughters.
suddenly, i feel so alone.
suddenly, i feel that i am missing everyone.
suddenly, i feel that i miss every single thing.
suddenly, i feel that i can't smile anymore.
suddenly, i can't hear my laughters.
suddenly, i feel that everyone is so busy.
suddenly, i forgot i hav friends around me.
suddenly, i seems to lost everything.
suddenly, everything seems to be nth to me.
suddenly, i dun feel my mind is functioning.
suddenly, i can't feel anything.
suddenly, i feel lik crying.
suddenly, i feel lik saying bye bye.
suddenly, i need a warm hug.
suddenly, i feel that i have nowhere to go.
suddenly, i feel that i am not going anywhere.
suddenly, i feel that nobody is looking.
suddenly, i feel that nobody is listening.
suddenly, i feel lik getting scolded.
suddenly, i dun feel lik talking back.
suddenly, i forgot those vulgarities.
suddenly, i wish someone would call me a bitch.
suddenly, i felt that my blood is cold.
suddenly, i seems invisible.
suddenly, i feel that time stopped.
suddenly, i heard everyone's laughters.
suddenly, i see everybody smiling.
suddenly, i seems little.
suddenly, i forgot i can talk.
suddenly, i forgot people have ears and eyes.
suddenly, i thought people are mute.
suddenly, i feel so retarded.
suddenly, i feel lik being tightly slapped.
suddenly, i feel that i am useless.
suddenly, i feel that i am dreaming.
suddenly, i feel i was never awake.
suddenly, sleeping seems so wonderful.
suddenly, i dun love anyone.
suddenly, i dun hate anyone.
suddenly, i forgot who am i.
suddenly, i became so forgetful.
suddenly, my mind seems so empty.
suddenly, life seems so meaningless.
suddenly, i thought i was in heaven.
suddenly, everythins seems so peaceful.
suddenly, i heard nothing.
suddenly, i feel that i am gone.
suddenly, i forgot i am alive.
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