You always admire what you really don't understand.
Please love me or I'll be gone.
Jocelyn Tan
23 March 1994
i always fall for anything and everything
that i know its impossible for me to have them.
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Friday, September 12, 2008, 9/12/2008 02:07:00 PM
I cannot show you I love you.
Finally, its a long waited friday today! (:
a bad friday actually,
nah, not bcos we got caught again.
instead, we nv see razak today eh! hahha! (:
Just a fking bad day, ):
everything is bad bad bad.
this might be a long post. =x
-eng lesson was bored, kop Jianfu's sweets. melt liao de! ):
wanted to write HE things on board then no markers,
so mdm teo not in class, go take her marker use, write one stroke only,
she came back so faster put everything back. -.-
-sci lesson was -.-, asked to present today. its so fuck. ):
-chinese lesson was alright,
-had HE, didnt have recess bcos of that, HE lesson was more than 2h today.
not fair ):
-but we fry donuts today! cook till super fun!
but i hate it when we have to deep fried things,
so hot and smelly la, ):
-nvm, at least we have delicious donuts! (:
its the last cooking lesson,
last cooking with raymond,
gosh, i gonna miss him! ):
-went to buy socks after sch and HOME! (:
-saw Wenwei on bus! he sat behind, and we chat through sms, -.-
-gonna have tuition later with girlfriends,
haven done tuition hw, maybe gonna nap first then do (:
-Lianglaoshi should have reached laogong's house now,
later would be Jy, JIAYOU girlfriends! (:
"The true hypocrite is the one who ceases to perceive his deception, the one who lies with sincerity."
Andre Gide
bbs once said, "hypocrites shuld jus vanish into the thin air. "
Do you agree?
what do think of hypocrites?
You know, i somewhat have enough of those rubbish,
i just don't know why you don't get tired if it,
why do you just have to put in so much effort in acting,
you always have your reasons to the mistakes you made,
actually i don't even know if what you are telling is the truth,
why are you putting on an act?
i don't understand, seriously.
Just put your acting aside, you don't have to act hurt people with your lies.
or maybe i should call it your beautiful lies,
or maybe to defend yourself,
you will call it white lies.
but aren't they just have somthing in common?
they are still lies,
still lies which do hurt someone when the truth is out.
what's the point of wasting your damn effort to lie,
and in the end, when the truth is out,
you still have to come out with another lie just to cover the first one.
and you just never stop lying.
you will just lose the trust your friends had in you.
everyone does lie.
i admit i did lied,
and it might not just be one time,
but who doesn't lie?
you lie to protect yourself,
to hold on to something,
but you will never know lying can only make something worse,
isn't it better to sort out everything together?
you will know better of yourself, of your friends,
maybe even strengthen the relationship,
eventhough the truth might hurts,
but at least you know what's going on,
then to be kept in the dark,
what's worse is,
you know that someone is lying to you,
everything he/she does is totally opposite from what she really feels,
that would be more hurting, i can say.
maybe my words don't make any sense,
maybe you don't get my point.
but can i question you?
Is there really someone that can really be trusted?
will there be someone?
honestly speaking,
till then, i still can't find someone i really trust,
i did trust people,
but in the end,
i realise i am wrong,
they just can't be trusted.
i've to admit that i can be totally trusted too!
its just that urge to share it with another person,
maybe so that you will feel better and less stressful,
then to keep that BIG SECRET of your friend all by yourself.
sometimes, its better not to know so much things.
but because of your curiosity,
that's human nature,
you just want to know more,
you will tend to regret when you know that you can't keep that secret all by yourself.
every single day,
every minute,
somebody would be lying.
i might be lying now too?
who knows.
so, are you a liar?
or rather hypocrites?
quite pissed off today.
friends really can't be 100% trusted.
i still don't get that attraction between us.
i dislike every single thing you do,
i don't like what you say,
i don't like what you do,
i don't like what you're gonna do.
no effort put in,
no apologies,
no duties done,
find reasons to defend yourself,
push everything to somebody else.
do you know what is shame?
shame on you.
give in nothing,
but you just used your mouth and comment,
and treated like you've done your part.
get this phrase in your mind,
actions speak louder than words.
don't you even have a sense of urgency?
you should be grateful.
i hate your attitude.
what's more do you know,
than to stand like sir stamford raffles,
or maybe put it in a much more nicer way,
Singapore next top model?
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