You always admire what you really don't understand.
Please love me or I'll be gone.
Jocelyn Tan
23 March 1994
i always fall for anything and everything
that i know its impossible for me to have them.
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Sunday, November 09, 2008, 11/09/2008 04:40:00 PM
Do you know of a place that is far far away from here?
sorry for the lack of updates people!
i will be back soon for updates and quizes that should be done. (:
Guzheng is starting tmr, i never practice. ):
i will be going to Genting from 8-10dec.
will be going with mama, sis, eunice and her mum! (:
i know i would be missed!
but i will bring back the air from malaysia! (:
I'm excited for the trip,
not because i can finallu sit comfortable coaches for the first time,
not because i am finally going overseas,
not because i can spent money and go shopping,
not because i can goo Genting after soooooo many years,
not because i can see the change there,
not because i can show off to those who are not going overseas,
but because,
i wanna relax,
i wanna breathe in cool and fresh air,
i wanna take a break from everything that is happening,
i wanna try to forget everything,
i wanna create new memories to replace those that aren't worth remembering,
i wanna try to sleep well in a new environment,
i wanna have myself occupied,
i wanna avoid myself from thinking too much,
i wanna search for my true self,
i wanna know what i should do and what i want,
i wanna try to pretend nothing has happen to us, to you, to me, to them.
i wanna see everyone and everything differently,
i wanna smile throughout,
i wanna step out of all affairs just for a period of time.
You might think i am crazy, how can a 3D2N trip make me accomplish so many things.
maybe you just have not realise how am i living in these days.
these months seem so long,
even a minute seem so long to me.
i need a long long
not a break from school work,
not a break from naggings,
but a break from all my troubles,
even if its just one day that i can live without thinking of anything that is kept me troubled,
i'd be glad.
Have you even try asking yourself if you've change?
or maybe you think i am the one who changed,
who is giving up everything between us?
i just can't see your soul, your heart with you anymore,
when we are together now,
i;m sad to say,
you've drift away,
or rather, your heart or soul have drifted away,
i wouldn;t wish to mention where it drifted away to ,
but i think its rather obvious.
i've always longed for a friend,
that means everything that he/she said,
that keep his/her promises,
that still remembers my presence even if we are away,
that doesn't leave me alone,
that doesn't think friends of the other gender are more important.
i'm sorry if you don't agree with what i said,
i'm sorry if you think i am selfish,
i'm sorry if i mind too much about your life,
i'm sorry if you think i am jealous,
i'm sorry if i want to be the most important.
maybe you've found yours,
maybe you think i can't be compared to him/her,
maybe we have different views on how friendship could be maintained.
Have you made a new friend?
Now. have you understand why you lost your old friend?
Labels: i wish i can pretend.