You always admire what you really don't understand.
Please love me or I'll be gone.
Jocelyn Tan
23 March 1994
i always fall for anything and everything
that i know its impossible for me to have them.
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Wednesday, January 07, 2009, 1/07/2009 03:17:00 PM
( 2nd bento box for the week! )
-lessons were boringgggg! ):
-my partner so 'cold' one! talk to him don't answer me! ):
-have to sit seperately with gfs in hall + class. super sad, nobody to talk to, nobody to laugh with.
-if sit alone, want to laugh, people thought i crazy~ -.-
-still every morning gt scolded by THAT GIRL! siao one! next time don't want talk to her! i so friendly okay!
-lessons start today, starting to feel stress. sucks. ):
-new guzheng teacher suck to the core please! LIANG ZHINENG, COME BACK!~ ):
-new guzheng timing till 6pm, *faints.
-the "pon-ing" habit for guzheng lesson is gonna be back! but we would pon, because we want to take part in SYF, fulfil lianglaoshi's wish.
actually i prefer lianglaoshi's lesson, regretted that we pon his lessons for SO many times. ): I MISS LIANG ZHI NENG!
-house practices are coming up, can i not go? ):
-i'm still considering if i should take up Amaths, i dont feel like taking A maths beacause i want Mr. Shaheful! i'm just worry that if i am taking Emaths instead of A maths, i will lose out more than others. ):
-there's a project coming up, hope group memebers will do things ah!
i hate projects man! ):
-there's CCA selection day on friday! need to stay back again! arghs. ):
-and i hate the new basketball court. -.-
p/s: i think there goes my WONDERFUL 2009. 2009 is gonna be worse than 2008, isn't it? ):
nothing to be happy about since school reopen, all :( !
its only Jan man!
p/p/s: broke down yesterday, sis saw it and she comfort me, i think i scared her. ):
quarrelled with mum yesterday, because i was so happy that i can see and hear JJ live on line for an hour, so i boast to my sis, and mum scolded me, she say i was too "INTO" JJ, and she started saying hurting stuffs, she said, "even if you go for his concert and everything, you think he really is your husband ah, you are his wife ah, he know you meh! " she screamed at me man. damn saddening, i was excited, i'm happy, yet i have no one to share my joy with. i remember when i was super moody in the past, i suddenly broke down infront of her, and she scolded me, scream at me, and i can only lie to her that my eyes hurts. sometimes when i'm super excited, i'd talk about JJ, and recieve super cold replies, maybe i just shared it with the wrong person. now when i have anything that i am happy or unhappy about, i will think again if i should really speak out. now i know why it hurts so much.
原来我从一开始就是自己一个人的,
我渐渐地发现我身边的家人朋友都看不见我,
我快乐的时候没有人听我发狂,
我伤心的时候没有人听我诉苦,
我需要一个肩膀依靠时, 没人在我身边.
我真的好辛苦, 我不知道我还能沉多久,
我真的累了.
我也是个人, 我也需要一个肩膀.
而那是在梦里才会发生的事.
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