You always admire what you really don't understand.
Please love me or I'll be gone.
Jocelyn Tan
23 March 1994
i always fall for anything and everything
that i know its impossible for me to have them.
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Wednesday, October 21, 2009, 10/21/2009 04:00:00 PM
I will influence you, shoo!
At 5:58, Jaebeom is super cute! i swear!
he said, " OMMA?"
super cuteee!
i scream and laughed out loud immediately after he said that!
This EP of Idol Army actually invited Super Models (foreigners) but i think they work in Korea,
cause they can speak Korean.
and when they are still at the back stage, they say HELLO and introduce themselves to the BOYS,
so when JaeBeom heard one of the girl's voice, he thought she was his mother because the girl sounds like her.
HE's just so cute when he said, "OMMA?"
before this, i intended to write a super long post.
because i;m super angry.
but thanks to this lovely darlings who cheered me up
when i watched JJONG's fancams and Idol Army.
after watching that, i laughed and screamed till i think my throat hurts now!
but i still wanna say...
Since Sec2, teachers have been saying i'm influencing my friends.
i mean, i'm serious, they are referring to me, some people might know,
cause when the teachers said that, they will there, and they know
how angry i am when i heard that, or maybe they forgotten about it now?
today, the same thing happened, and another teacher indirectly said this again.
i don't understand why, but i don't think i am?
or the friends around me all are too innocent and pure that it seems like i'm so bad?
maybe i'm too sensitive, but i admit i'm a little more sensitive than others.
sometimes after the teachers said that, i think, but i just don't seems to agree with them that i'm influencing my friends.
everytime when we are scolded my teachers in group,
i will always be the one responding to the teachers,
but i never once talked back rudely, i'm just telling the truth and the reasons,
maybe that's why teachers think i'm bad because i'm only the one who speaks up?
all these hurt me more than just getting fed up,
because i don't see why am i being said to be influencing my friends.
maybe my friends just are too innocent and well-behaved for me,
maybe there aren't who i should be hanging out with.
maybe people don't understand how i feel because they are just too angelic.
maybe they think its something that doesn't concern them and they just go 'haha',
i tired of this, this is the 2nd time, and it both happens because of the same reason,
absence from school events/cca/classes/courses.
so is it the devil and the person who looks like she is bad always the one who INFLUENCE the others in the group to not go for some courses?
maybe yes maybe no.
but i'm sure to say, sometimes things/people aren't as typical as you see.
Now you understand why this lovely boy here is able to cheer me up? :D
(its a candid shot)
i hold back my tears because i know these are worthless,
and i hold it back to show that i'm in no wrong,
but how do i hold it back when i realise i'm wronged,
and i have no one to talk to.
where's justice.
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