Besides thinking of Jonghyun, Jocelyn is...

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I always admit to my friends that if I will to have a boyfriend, he'd be more important to me as compared to my friends.

then recently, things happened, and got me thinking...

not that there's now a unlucky boy to be boyfriend,

but i just feel so loved by my friends these days,

when i am feeling so so so down.

Frankly speaking, i never told anyone what happened to me recently,

what got my mood down,

the most i reveal is... ITS ABOUT MY FAMILY.

I never thought one day i will get emo over this,

maybe i'm not prepared for the worst?

or maybe my friends or even myself is too used seeing me emo over RELATIONSHIP stuffs.

Whatever it is, the purpose of my post is...

I'm really grateful that i've such nice friends around me...

Really, i'm really touched,

i just can't express it out.

When they are concerned about me, they ask about me, i'd give really cold replies,

not because i don't appreciate their effort,

but you know what?

Tears are choking me, i need to hold them back.

Maybe all that have happened recently is a blessing in disguise, really.

i now know who are my true friends.

Its not always the person you like/the person you longed to have who comforted you,

very often you just wanna share it with him so you go to him,

but this time, i didn't, he didn't.

And i'm glad i'm held back my moves.

I stay in spot, thought i'd need to face this alone,

but i was wrong, so wrong.

Friends come to me, they asked, they comforted, they assured me that they will be there for me.

I feel the sincerity, i really did.

Even if what they said are just words of POLITENESS,

i still feel it.

What shocked me?

Friends that i don't really know, that i didn't exchange more than 1oo sentences with, that i never met before, he/she showed me their love.

I wonder...

How can someone be so nice to me? ):

Do i really deserve their love?

Did i do the same for them?

When things fall on me, i thought why does god need to give me challenges like these, why do i have to go through this?

but because of FRIENDS,

i think again, i feel so thankful that i have them around me.

I guess i know who are true and who aren't.

I guess i know the importance of friends.

i guess i know why friends are always the most important.

I thought i have alot to write, i got so much on mind.

but now my mind is BLANK now.

ANYWAYYYYYYYY,

what i wanna say is...

I'm really thankful for those who was there for me, will be there for me and is always there for me.

No matter physically or mentally, the support i received from you guys really picked me up from this fall.

(: